戀水仙 research

此幅繪畫的媒材主要以工筆為主，探討個人內心中對男體的矛盾，圖畫中的兩條龍和兩個自畫像映襯出自我內心中的恐懼崇拜，於是找了水仙花做對比,右臂上的水仙刺青,傳達出一種自戀的觀感和對男體的推崇、整幅畫呈現一種陰鬱又慵懶的神秘 氛圍，是自我的寫實投射,參考資料為卡拉瓦喬的酒神少年(下方)。

  In this panting , I wanted to

express the deeply scared in my heart. I love the human body , especially the man body. I like to describe them and observe them . Well, however , somebody say it is so gay. But what is most laughable is I am the man who is very disgusted with gay！ With this condition , I composed this composition of gay subject. First , I considered what has arouse my sense of loving man’s body was resulted from Narcissism . I love my face and so I love my body , I love my body so I love man’s body . With this formula , I gived a man having a Narcissus tattoo to in the name of myself .With this idea ,   it is a person who has my face . Second , however , what is certainty torment me is my afraid . I afraid is am I really a gay ? I loved man’s body so I am a gay ? I drew a afraid person squat on the right side with a puzzled expression , and it was descried myself as well as . Third , the two Chinese dragons , which are represent the two men. As far as we know , the Chinese dragon is in the name of the man , and nevertheless , it also have the sexy hint : the penis . I placed the two dragon play together in the middle of the painting to respond to the theme , obviously , it hint the two men ,and needless to say , the gay . However , the dragons’ use isn’t only emphasize the theme ,but balance the frame and link the big man on the top with the smaller man underneath . At last , the ocean waves is represent the world of my heart . Human’s heart is so wide that no one can totally understand it even their self . It just like the ocean that know one can actually grasp it . Well , maybe the confused of am I a gay is just a little stormy in my heart ocean . A tiny block on my life way .

With the two paragraph beyond , I think you may have some different point and another explanation of my panting . However , this is the good phenomenon I really expect to see . It means you see the deep of my heart which I can’t find . Well , as an ancient Chinese proverb said :  There isn’t a best explanation of a best poem .However As well as art .